October 13th, 2009

Writer's Block: What is your muse?

If you're trying to create something, like a story, a composition, or a design, etc., do you find yourself imagining how others will react to it? Does that impede or enhance the creative process?

No, I really don't consider what others will think or how they will react to it when I write something.

Unless I AM writting something specially for someone, be it for a birthday present or just writing a random drabble with special words they could have provided to guide me in the whole "creating a story" process.

Truth to be told, I am sometimes shaken by the thought of what others could think, say or even believe of those small stories I keep for myself, mainly because I create them to express my thoughts, fear and emotions during hard times.
For example, I have a journal in which I wrote while I was living in France, a beautiful yet somehow terrifying country for a girl that is unable to speak her mind when all she really loves is sharing stories and listening to others.

Because I felt alone and somehow unguided in a foreign land, I wrote stories that were mainly to keep me company. To remind me that in the other side of the sea, there was my home. And how someday, I would be able to go back and maybe share with everybody those stories that I had kept to myself for so long.

Not that I ever did.

But what I really consider when sharing with someone something I wrote, it is not because I was really thinking on the reactions or thoughts of someone else.

I know I sometimes write crappy stuff. Hell, I would say that 5 out of 6 stories are not worth reading ever again. But I love to write and I don't really care. Once I make up my mind and find characters to write and share about, I don't really mind if they are likeable or not. If they are interesting, worth sharing or even vaguely familiar to those of other stories.

My creative process is quite weird really. It just happens.
And I flow with the words.

Maybe I'm not really good at writing, sharing or even creating stories. But I do know that I love writing them.
So... it doesn't really matter to me what others will think or how they will react.
I someone likes what I like, I sure feel happy and content. But if no one likes what I write, I don't consider it a failure, unless I had no fun at writing it at all.

It happens.